Broken Lives Matter

I don't want to say much about this, but I wanted my lovelies to see it: https://www.facebook.com/groups/feistyquotesforsavagesouls/permalink/3599783946918602/

Hello Lovelies! This morning my mind is on my schedule, as one would expect it to be on a Monday. BUT I'm not thinking about time in a regimented, linear way, like the majority of people I know. Since I was an infant, spending the first 3 months of my life in an incubator in a hospital, I've been DYS-regulated; my schedule has been to eat and sleep and be productive whenever I felt the time had come:) This makes it particularly difficult as (technically) an adult. I can hardly call myself "part of normal society--" at least not for many, many years. Until my late 30s, I stuck to my non-routine. I ate and slept and worked as I saw fit, and took pains not to worry about what other people, particularly my peers, were doing. I hated the question "what fills your day?" There was no good answer. I had no set schedule at all. If I thought about it too long, I'd end up getting down on myself for not being at a certain life stage, or having accomplished a cer...

Well Lovelies, It's been almost a week since my darling Papaya and I said goodbye for now:( She was 18 and had been doing poorly for several months; the week of her euthanization she and I both knew the time had come. I called up the vet the day before, so I could arrange transportation and so my P. Nut and I could have one last night of cuddles. We spent the rest of the day in Papaya's favorite room of my condo, the living room, watching TV while she slept in her "little pink house"-- a cozy domed nook I got for her before I'd even adopted her. I supplied her with lots of fresh water with CBD gummies disolved in it, and all the food she asked for. Her one remaining tooth hurt her so badly, as did her failing kidneys, I didn't even bother looking at dose recommendations. What my baby wanted, my baby got. The morning of, as early as I could stand to see her go, my poor sweet Papaya's meows were so much quieter than usual. She was very, very tired. Eighte...