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Spoiler: Blowing of Steam With Rap

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Well Lovelies, This unending trial of an extrovert's nightmare continues. My plans to finally see family fell through, because of the betrayal/oversight of another family member:( I won't get to see the twin sister I haven't seen in two years, or get to meet her fantastically beautiful little girl, nor get to hug my fabulous 4-year-old nephew OR my brother-in-law:( As I told my cat last night while my disappointment was still fresh and hadn't quite sunk in yet: "It's you and me kid." Today it's like I can't fully open my eyes, like they're puffy and red from crying--although to my knowledge that hasn't happened. It still feels like I have. Maybe I did it in my sleep. A friend of mine from closer to home has been emailing me periodically since this whole Pandemic jumped off, and he is similarly isolated by his own health concerns, even with the vaccine. It's very relateable, and I'm glad I have the sounding board. Recently he s

Let It Snow

Hello Lovelies! I don't have a lot of time, but I haven't posted this week. This little guy popped up on my feed; since he has a disability too (though he doesn't know it so don't tell him!) I thought he belonged here. Isn't he the cutest thing you've ever seen? I might change his name to Avalanche or Flurry at least--to give him a more imposing edge.

Finding Cheer

Good morning, Lovelies! This is the second day this week I've been up before the sun, which surprises even me. I am definitely more likely to be found staying up late then sleeping off my sleep debt far into the next day. So the next few days will be busy, and that's probably what's got me so keyed up. Nothing at all is negative or even unpleasant (although my first mammogram on Saturday--might be unpleasant if what I've heard of them is true); it's just busy. And I know that this early rising means I'll crash later. That's how it happened the other day, that's how it will happen again barring a miracle. But I'm looking forward to my busy-ness. For one thing, my Thanksgiving will be the antithesis of busy, so it seems only fair I should work it off until then. Along the same lines, I've been eating like a bird this month in preparation for the final, fantastic glut. For another thing, it's been a long time coming. In fact I've been m

Schedule? What Schedule?

Hello Lovelies; I've missed our chats, I've been stressed to the hilt lately; the holiday season came up on me like a thief of joy in the night:( Halloween finally disappeared and then everything exploded in red and green glittter! Currently I'm dealing with so many things at home, related to my ignoring my domestic obligations for so long that they've piled up. Literally piled up. I have laundry all ove the house STILL, although the new laundry center has been working like a dream. The laundry in my basket is as high as it was prior to the laundry center's installation! Although this time, at least I know it's because I've been indulging in MORE clean sheets, clean clothes, and clean towels than I have in months. My mind is still collecting itself after I've spent the past three days fretting over whether or not a mortgage payment went through--awake all night worrying then asleep all day trying to forget my troubles. But today I resolved the issu

Belated

Good Afternoon, Lovelies! This is the day after an amazing birthday weekend. I hit a milestone in age, but a lady never reveals WHICH milestone:) So I'll just say I'm older than 10 and less than 100. You may draw your own conclusions. It's been a whirlwind; Friday in particular threatened to be completely devastating when I got stood up by my ride to Phlot for a spa day. Fortunately a neighbor saw my dilemma and rescued me, driving me there without a second thought. Thank Heaven for kind people; seriously. Where would we be without them? We'd be at the mercy of the unkind-minded majority, that's where:( And let me tell you, that would make life unbearable. Isn't it lovely when the Universe balances things out so nicely? And it's a very good thing I got to let loose this weekend and finally get over the stresses that have been plaguing me. Until Tuesday of last week, for the entire summer and a big chunk of the Autumn, I'd been without a washing machin

Oceans of Rain, Oceans of Laundry

Hello Lovelies! Okay, so I DID miss this week AND last week's blog installments. But it's been quite busy around here! After an odyssey of paying and waiting then paying and waiting some more--several times over the course of a long, hot summer of hand-washing--I FINALLY got a new laundry center! It fits into the spot for it (right next to the linen closet) absolutely perfectly. There's even a little room for the kitchen table leaf, which I was worried there wouldn't be:) Ah the joys of being almost 40:) You finally get to buy yourself a big, fancy present--but it's a major household appliance. I've made my peace with the unfairness of it; I'm happy to be the age I am and fully capable of handling stressful situations that drag on and on and ON! Needless to say, this past weekend was all about doing laundry, and I'm still working through it. But now I also have big baskets of beautiful, good-smelling, clean, fluffy laundry to put away as well as t

Deep Thoughts and Deep Breaths

Hello Lovelies! It's the last gasp of warm weather, and I've been so busy trying to get things done today (despite my overwhelming urge to procrastinate chores)--I completely forgot to get THIS done! Silly me. Speaking of chores, we're all having trouble with staying on top of those. There is so much support for the idea that they are futile and won't matter in the long run and WHY EVEN BOTHER??? This past week I have struggled with so much apathy and depression, I doubt I've been out of my comfiest, sleepiest clothes for more than half an hour at a time:( I've spoken to an older woman who is CLEARLY suffering from the same cabin fever/shut-in-fection, though she won't admit it. And it has gotten me to do some serious thinking. Seriously. Her comments to me, the way she phrased them, and the way she took our conversation down a dark path it did NOT need to go down, all belie that she is suffering intensely inside. The loneliness for her must be absolute

Represent!

Happy Monday, Lovelies! Okay; "happy" and "Monday" don't usually "play well together" in a sentence, I'll admit. But today I have a rare exception. The article below addresses the very thing I talked about about a year or two ago--how negatively the Disabled are presented in a world clearly not made for them. A world that would surely prefer them not seen and not heard. Well finally, they're getting seen, AND heard, AND the world is being more or less told to "get used to it." Rather than continue shooing us back behind closed doors. While this article does also include other minorities in its discussion of how the marginalized are being brought out of the margins and given true-to-life representation, it's definitely a start, making the Abled see the Disabled on toy store shelves, if not through well-attended marches just yet:) It made me smile and gave me reason to celebrate on this seconds-from-raining day (as if the approach

3 Cups of Espresso

...So you know how THIS day is going. It's a sopping-wet Monday requiring much, much fortification just to get through. Thank goodness I had espresso beans waiting to be opemed today. There's just nothing like their kick on a cold, sodden, unhealthy Monday morning I really want nothing more than to sleep through. As it is, Lovelies, I've pressed the snooze alarm on my radio multiple times, and woke up holding my cell phone; a sign that I'd turned IT'S offensive buzzer off in my sleep. After coffee there were the inevitable phone calls to various people rearranging my schedule. Do you ever feel like you're just scheduling things to RE-schdedule or cancel them? It's something I've dealt with on a heightened level for the past year and a half. ever since fears of an unseen enemy added an extra layer of caution and another reason to rethink going out. I would have thought nobody in their right mind would be out in the weather today, but I was wrong. As th

Broken and Bewildered

Hello, Lovelies! I cannot believe it's been almost a year of silence on my end:( Honestly, I have wanted to write. But this past year has left me with both FAR too much, and absolutely nothing--to say. One change in my life that I will mention is that I adopted a wonderful senior cat, and we have left the ever-more-frightening downtown area. She loves me now! The reason for tonight's abrupt return is that my heart is far too heavy to keep things to myself anymore. Too many people have died. Not just people. WONDERFUL people. One of my best friends in the whole world, my would-have-been brother-in-law who ALWAYS called me his sister. The only two times I met him in California, he treated me like a queen and so did his family. Covid took HIM right at the beginning. I'm newly heartbroken every single day that I can't call him and tell him about something good or bad that happened. I can't hear his perspective or laugh at his laid-back take on the situation. And the