Goodbye, hello

Last night I made a decision, and this morning I carried it through. Since my poor bank account is dismally low and could use a few "pennies from Heaven"--literally--I'm taking the Bridal Gallery's generous owner up on her offer--I'm letting her keep the dress and getting my money back.

The first time I slipped that dress over my head, I told myself I would feel like a legend if I wore it down the aisle. When I saw myself in it, I knew it was perfect for this wedding. The O'Rourke family are legend; their history goes back before King Arthur:) But the same magic may not be exactly present if I ever plan my wedding again.

And this morning, a belated birthday gift from my mom--a tapestry emblazoned with the moon and named after one of my favorite Irish songs, Van Morrison's "Into the Mystic" arrived on my doorstep. The magic is still in my life--in a different form.

I had a good cry (they've become something of a morning routine, but they make me okay for the rest of the day, so I almost look forward to them), and now I'm carrying on. I've got bills to pay and paint to buy to give my sad house a new glow...these pennies from Heaven will certainly help. I'm just glad something finally allowed me to let go and see what I really needed:)

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